When my son was a tiny newborn, I struggled with feeling sad that the days were slipping by so fast and that someday he’d be grown and would no longer need me. Instead of being his momma, I’d be a mother-in-law.
I knew it was crazy and even laughed a little when I said it out loud, but it’s how I felt in those early, hormonal days. I wanted to hang on to his tininess as long as possible and already felt the days slipping by me faster than I could reach out and catch them.
A wise momma friend laughed with me and said that even though she understood the temptation to feel that way, it was a waste of time to “borrow that worry from tomorrow.”
She was right, but there are other temptations as well that are less crazy and less far off.
Now that we’ve celebrated my son’s first birthday, the temptation feels even more real. It’s easy to dread the terrible twos I see looming in the future. It’s sad to imagine saying goodbye on the first day of school. It’s scary to consider the challenges of the teenage years beyond that.
But then I catch a glimpse of my son’s face as his eyes and smile light up when my husband returns home from work. Or I hear him giggle and squeal happily as he plays peek-a-boo all by himself, covering and uncovering his face with a towel in utter delight. I see him standing proudly in the grass, excited to show off a new skill. He couldn’t do any of those wonderful, wonderful things as a tiny newborn. How much joy I have gained in seeing him grow!
Mommas, change is good. I’m here to tell you that yes, those newborn days are sweet, but the toddler days are going to be wonderful as well. And every day beyond.
They will be wonderful if I allow them to be, if I let go of where we were and allow my heart to live fully and completely where we are.
I still struggle with feeling sad about how fast time has passed, but I’m starting to realize that the best days aren’t behind us. I will probably always miss how my newborn babe would cuddle into my chest and nap. But that doesn’t mean I won’t have cuddle time with my soon-to-be-toddler. I’ll always treasure the memories of our first days and weeks at home as a family of three, but that doesn’t mean we have nothing better to look forward to.
In fact, I have everything to look forward to!
I will get to see him learn to walk. Learn to kick a soccer ball. Learn to say “I love you, momma!”
I can look forward to his first t-ball game and his first school field trip. His first pet and his first real vacation.
And I should look forward to those things. I’m learning to turn my eyes to the future when I feel drawn to dwell in the past.
But mostly, I’m striving to simply live in the present, trusting that each day with my sweet boy will be better than the last.
The best is truly yet to be.
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