With October being the month where we remember and think about the precious little lives that left us too soon it was my hearts desire to write a post for you.. What would I write to you? I had no idea. The last thing I wanted to do was add salt to your wound with my attempt to encourage you so I let this post sit on the back burner until I got something.
I was listening to Amanda Cook’s album “A brand new world” which is my absolute favorite album right now and I fell into the song “A city of hope” and immediately I thought of you. In the beginning of the song it says:
“Once we were a Barren land.
Dry from disappointment
But Heaven like a heavy rain
Revealed Your heart to us”.
And the chorus goes:
“You are mending the brokenhearted.
You are making all things new.
You’re rebuilding out of the ruins
A city of hope with the ones you love.”
The closest thing I came to a miscarriage was going through the process with one of my best friend’s Sarah. I remember the very first time she told me she was pregnant with her second child and I was so excited to be pregnant with her and her calling me days later that she was going through an Ectopic pregnancy. I was a complete brokenhearted shock and than a few months later being pregnant again and loosing him to a miscarriage. I remember praying over her, crying with her, and fighting for this little life with her. I wouldn’t dare say I knew what she was going through.. The thought is unimaginable for me but my heart was still broken and I wept heavily many times. I wanted to be there in person for her and love her. I sought The Lord those few months and demanded answers. I don’t believe for a second that miscarriages and infant loss is God’s will.. And in my answer demanding the scripture said it all.
“The Thief comes to steal, kill and destroy: I (Jesus) have come so that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly” -John 10:10
May we not hope in death but hope in life. May we put our hope in Jesus. The one who takes situations and tragedies that leave us broken and devastated and brings us to a city of hope and makes all things new. And what the devil means for a lifetime of despair God can take it, renew it and use it for good!
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called to according to His purpose”. – Romans 8:28
And my heart is so full of joy that God has built His city of hope and placed my friend Sarah and her husband in the midst of it as they welcomed their second beautiful daughter into the world and who will be turning one in just a few days. Elliana Joy whose name means God answers.
My sisters, God does not want you to live a life of devastation. He doesn’t want you to be brokenhearted and it is not His will for you to try to get pregnant and have it end in death. He says in Exodus that none will miscarry or be barren in your land. (Exodus 23:26) Why do miscarriages and infant death happen then if it’s not God’s will? You know, that’s a question that I don’t have the answers to and I’m not going to pretend to either; however, what I do know is that it’s God’s will for life and He is a God who chooses life. He’s a pro-life God! And I know like He has done for Sarah, He wants to do for you. He wants to bless you with a miracle baby and He wants you to place your hope in Him. He wants to heal your heart from hurts that are unbearable and He wants to bring good out of what the enemy meant for harm.
My prayer for you today sister is that you are filled with His hope and that you will listen to Amanda’s song “A city of hope” and be filled with The Holy spirit and not give up. I’m friends with many of you and I’ve seen pictures all month of moms with their pregnant belly who didn’t get the chance of kissing their faces, tickling their feet, knowing what they looked like or watching them grow into the man or woman God created them to be. And scrolling down the many pictures my heart breaks for you and Jesus wants to place you in a city of hope my dear sisters. A place of joy, overflowing peace, and new beginnings – not forgetting the sweet child that you carried for so many weeks or months – look back and know that God still has the victory because those sweet babies are with Jesus.
If you are a mom who struggled with miscarriages or infant loss and you need encouragement and prayer please don’t hesitate to email me at Arrowsandwarriors@gmail.com. I would love to pray for you and help in any way I can.